It has been a while since my last post. It seems that when I think of something to write about I am at work and then by the time I get home I am too tired to type. Well, here I am typing. Now to think of what I want to write about.
I have been missing Oliver a lot lately. I had a week of thinking that I really want this baby to be a boy. We are undecided about having more after this and I think if we have another girl I will be a little sad. I know I will be happy if we come home with a baby at all but it is something I think about. Plus on Easter Sunday my pastor was going on and on about death and talking about the first time he saw a person who had died (as a pastor) which got me remembering the night Oliver was born and what it was like to hold him.
At school we are learning about Revelation right now in Bible class. This week we were talking about heaven. I told my kids that I think about heaven a lot more now. I think about people I know who are there and pray that they will meet Oliver so that they can tell him about me. That might seem weird but it is true.
As far as pregnancy goes things are going OK. We are at 18 weeks now and every week it seems a little more possible that things might turn out different this time. I know that our loss week (27) will be the hardest. That also coincides with the last week of school so I don't know if I will be able to take a personal day... Actually I might be able to since the day of 27 weeks, which was the day Oliver was born last time, the grade 7s are going to the water slides all day. Not the most fun field trip at almost 7 months pregnant...
Anyway, I have been really busy at work and so very tired. I think my iron might be low. I have been doing a terrible job of keeping up with school work and I know there are a few parents that I should be in contact with about homework. I just can't seem to get it in gear. How do I make myself care more? I love my students they are so nice and we have fun but I don't care about the paperwork side of things. That has always been a weak spot for me (marking) but this year it is worse.
This has been a scattered post but it is good to write. I hope you are all doing well. Thanks for reading.
-detailed ultrasound (our first ultrasound this pregnancy) - April 21 -check back for pictures
-next doctor appointment - May 7
-OB appointment - May 26
I want to tell them
8 years ago
1 comment:
18 weeks! Yay! So I think you must be 10 weeks ahead of me. Right now, I'm some where around 8 weeks. We have our second ultrasound tomorrow April 22nd to hear the heartbeat. Our first ultrasound showed a tiny baby (I was 6w5d at that one) and we saw the heartbeat, but this time we hope to hear it. I'm a little nervous, but not a ton. Anyway, glad to hear that your pregnancy is going well. I completely understand about missing Oliver. There are days when I ache for Parker. I went to his grave a few weeks ago and just sobbed. I also hope that this baby is a boy, but I'll be thankful for a baby that breathes too :) Anyway, maybe I should have emailed, oh well. Again, glad to hear the pregnancy is going well :)
Praying for you in Idaho.
~Rachel
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