Thursday, December 16, 2010

Decisions

Well, it's been quite a long time since I posted. Not sure why. Guess things have gotten busy. Have been thinking it's time to start writing again though.

When I was pregnant with Lucy and just after she was born we said we would wait until she was a year old to decide if we would have another baby. Lucy is 15 months old now and we are still dodging the issue a little. We live in a 2 bedroom home so that seems to me to be the biggest factor. At one point my husband said to me, "I don't think we're going to have any more kids are we?" At that comment I just started crying. So it has been hard to talk about. He knows my reasoning but the stupid money part of it makes things hard. Plus I can't even keep the house clean with 2 living children so what would it look like with another?

So why do I want another baby? I really do want one.
-I always thought it would be nice to have more than 2, at least I think I thought that...
-I want to try for another boy. Bad reason? Maybe. I would be happy with a third girl though
-I think that if I don't that I will regret it in 5 years
-I want to hold a baby again (an not just a friend's baby though that is nice too)

If anyone out there is still reading, what are your thoughts? What did/will you do?



1 comment:

Rachel said...

I know you've had this posted for a while, so maybe you and your husband have already made up your minds, but I totally understand your thinking about trying for another boy. (to refresh your memory, this is Rachel, my son Parker passed away around the same time as your son).

My husband Geoff and I have talked about how, if our second living child is a girl we will try for a third boy. It's something that he feels more strongly about then I do.

Both of us hope beyond hope that the second living child will be a boy, but if not, we'll persevere and try again for a boy.

so I completely understand and am still reading your blog :).