Tomorrow

Tomorrow is Oliver's memorial service. I am dreading it for a two reasons. One, it is going to be extremely difficult. I'm sure it will be super emotional and draining. The other reason is harder to explain. I feel like after it is over that he will really be gone. Now, I realize he is already gone but there is something so final about a funeral. Maybe part of me feels like after this is over that I will need to get back to normal. I can't really explain what I mean. Of course I do know that normal is no longer defined in the same way it was before August 7th.